~recollecting memories~

movies part 2

2005-07-08T14:09:00.000+08:00

tips on dating HAHA!!! hmmm... a useful guide to all guys out there... =P
1st kiss... guys: give in 90% and wait for 10% return from the gal...

romantic storyline watched with the company of ur love one under a romantic ambience... lovely moments created... ^_^ **hugs**

BEST CHRISTMAS MOVIE>>> sweet touching and heartfelt movie... *for those who truly believe* hohoho~~ merry christmas dear... :)

KungFu Hustle... haha best comedy of the year?? i doubt it haha... okie okie... it aint that bad... quite nice... dear dear enjoyed it alot haha... better say smth nice else...hehe but i like the lollipop story more than the silly jokes...

MILLIONS: a religious movie?
what's the value of money? better to be rich or to be happy??
to me its best to have dear love me hehe

~MEET THE FOCKERS:
baby's first word= "ass-hole" hehe oopz...
*see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil =P*

movies collection...

2005-07-08T14:07:00.000+08:00

^INITIAL D~ nice cool race eh??

^A Lot Like Love: 7 years agreement... will those fated to be together find each other despite the challenges upon them??? remember the song he sang? haha and all the sweet sweet details of the show?? so romantic... hehe

*WAR OF THE WORLDS: BEST VISUAL EFFECTS

haha though a bit lame to use aliens attack as story line

haha =P oopz... but i still liked it cos i watched with u^_^

me to u...

2005-07-08T11:48:00.000+08:00

dear booked into camp today... very very sad cos i miss him so so so much... although its just a few hours ago when i last spoke to him and i saw him yesterday... i already feel so terrible... 3 weeks ain't a long period but i cant help but miss him... everything around me reminds me of dear... :'( promised dear not to cry again but it just wont listen to me... my eyes are red and puffy from all the cryings since last night... why am i such a fool... why did i not realise how good dear is... why dint i love u more... why let me realise my love for u only when its 'too late'... i miss having u by my side, ur hugs, ur love, ur kisses, ur thoughtfulness... u're a support in my life dear... i don't know how am i to survive with ur absence but please return soon... for i know how much i love u... i'm sorry for all the pain i've caused on u... i'm sorry for being such a useless girlfriend... but i promise it wont be the same again when u book out... even till then my love for u wont change... i promise.. hmmm... i'm worried for dear too... army life well its something all guys have to go through but... who can bear to be apart from the love one... *dear... promise me u'll take care of urself and be fine... i'm here waiting for ur return... lotsa love, dear *

~Lord, please bless and protect him while he's away undergoing the tough army trainings... please let everything that comes his way be smooth-sailing and lord please bless him with good health and safety... let him be strong to face all the challenges ahead... grant him the courage the faith the determination... lord, i entrust him unto ur protection... please guide him and watch over him, lord. please hear my callings out to u... lord.

in jesus's name i pray, amen ~

2005-03-17T14:39:00.000+08:00

been so so so long since i last wrote here... somewhat lost track of how to start this entry... between 'us' alot of things have happened... we faced several times of 'crisis'... but those things i shan't talk abt it anymore... hmm... got my A level results... ain't that good but not that bad also hmm... now all i can do is to hope that i'll get a seat in NUS... hmmm... so many things have happened... with dardar... we're facing setbacks... but in the past month... we've had several good dates together... on the 14/3 (3 months after we had our 1st date) we had a dinner date haha or rather supper outdoors... remember the KFC meal?? hmm... not to forget the gifts and the various meals dardar bought for me... we went to NUS and NTU open house together too... it felt good to have him around then... at least others will know i'm attached... haha...

dardar dirtied our ring... naughty him... hmmm... actually i know dardar's going through a tough emotional phrase too... in terms of his pressures and unhappiness that's filling him up... after reading those 'love letters' aka 'diary entries' from dardar... i realised how hurt he's feeling... yet he never told me about it... felt quite sad and bad also when i read them... yuan lai dardar wei wo fu chu le zhe mer duo ren shou le zhe mer duo... shen wei ta de ning yi ban wo ji ran hu lue le ta bu gou zhong shi ta zai hu ta pei ban ta... *hugs* when i recall all these times spent with him... i really really felt touched... he did so so so much for me... he's trying his best to be the best he can be, changing and improving himself to accommodate me... all the support and love from him... they're priceless... i've to admit at times i don't quite like the way he behaves... and likewise there're times i cant accompany him and stuffs... throwing temper and mood swings... haiz... wo zhen de kui dai le dardar... *hug hugs* xie xie ni wei wo zuo de yi qie yi qie... ^_^

baby... hugs...

2005-02-03T17:13:00.000+08:00

hmm... made dardar so sad last night... haiz... all my fault... but i hoped today's date was good enough to pamper and coax my love... hmmm... v day coming le... haha i think i like that sk heart-shaped pendent... but its $99 without the chain somemore hmmm.... duno if dardar will buy it not... but he quite broke le... spent so much these few days and its still the begining of the month... haha unless he uses his ang-bao money... =P hehe... dardar bought puzzle for me... and one for himself... and one i bought it for him today haha... 3 puzzles wow!~~ haha... hmmm... dardar a bit sad today... cos of what happened and he thought i'm angry with him... hmm... ok la... my figure ain't that fantastic but it ain't bad either la... =P just that gers care more abt appearances ma... and of cos i would wanna hear from dardar his real opinion about me... as in not just hide truths to make me happy loh... things like if he's proud to go out with someone like me this kind of looks and figure... to bring me out with pride based on the identity that i'm his gf etc... hmm... i do know that dardar loves me alot... really alot... and that he cares, he's scared of losing me... he wants to give me the best he can offer... dardar zhen de hen hao... but there're flaws in him too... for one is how he settle matters... his character is the kind he'll ren qi tun shen no matter what happens... and ya i know he loves his family etc and wants to lighten his parent's burden and financial expenses... but sometimes the way he settles those issues i find it silly loh... he doesn't have to do those things like for one he's considering if he should trade in his hp which is still rather new or give it to his sis and just use any lousy phones himself... dardar tai wei qu zhi ji le loh... i believe his parents can still afford things de loh... not everything also needs dar to sacrifice himself... wo xin teng ma.... plus dardar has to spend on our dates too... hmmm.... plus v day and all the surprises or ani's... hmmm... haha the bracelet and pandent *hint* hahaha kidding la... its too ex le... the prezzies should come in slowly... haha don't forget our love is still young and growing fonder by the days... haha... =P mm, honestly he should spend more on himself too... else he'll lose weight as the days go by... *hugs* baobei... wo ai ni oh... ^_^

wishing u were somehow here again...

2005-02-02T15:55:00.000+08:00

** say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime

say the word and i will follow you

share each day with me, each night, each morning... **

hmmm... been meeting my dardar so often these days... met him at clementi just now for his lunch... haha had to give in and pamper him a little... he already 'sa jiao' what to do... how to turn his request down... hmm... met him yesterday too... haha that was a great day of crazy shopping... he spent like at least $200 at one go loh... t-shirts, belt, cap(which he now thinks is meant for girls) haha... socks, cds, puzzles with frames haha(this is the 'killer' so expensive!!!) bleagz... and he paid part of his 'ai qing zai' (this debt will never be cleared... haha ^_^) hmmm... oh he bought another t shirt today too... and the magnet for me... haha... he still owes me lots of stuff... hahaha... baobei... *hugs* hmm... took neo-cards with him yesterday but i can't keep it so its with dardar... hmmm... can't believe we actually did 'that' in the machine yesterday... but hmmm... its so nice sweet and enjoyable hehe *bleagz* hao ai wo de baobei... hmmm... not to forget the date on sunday(1st month ani) before he went to work... a long bus journey that doesn't seem that long afterall... sitting on the upper deck of 132(which was rather empty) all the way from one terminal to the other... hmmm, cuddled and in the midst of everything... we brought our relationship a step forward... and had our very first kiss... haha... hmmm... never thought it'll happen that fast but it took place at the right moment with the right atmosphere and feelings... it was romantic, sweet and natural yet done passionately haha... what a way to describe it... but i liked that feeling... =P dar said i was a good kisser and he enjoyed it, wanted it to last and that was his 1st kiss... didn't feel like it was his first cause he was rather good at it *"professional kisser" hahaha* with his frenching and other moves... haha... but since he says so i shall take his word then... ^_^ dar's been bugging me to tell him how i felt, and qns like if i miss him, if i love him... haha... silly pig... of cause i love u and how can i not miss a person i love... mm...? hehe... as for how i felt... ya the kiss was enjoyable, every moment with u is great... is so lovey-dovey hahaha *hao rou ma oh...* bleagz... i hug the heart cushion to sleep every night and in the mornings i'll speak to dar on the phone while he's on the way to school... *yawns* hmmm... was talking to dar about our past and when i heard him speak abt 'her' i finally understood how he feels when he heard abt 'him'... not really jealous la but xin li dang ran hui you dian bu zi zai... hmmm... hai hao xian zai baobei hen ai hen ai wo... wo ye hen ai ta... *hugs* this kind of feeling never existed when i was with 'him'... don't wanna compare the guys but in anyway dardar's much better than 'him' at least dardar zai hu wo ye hen chong wo hen teng wo... HAO XIN FU O~~~ ^_^ * bao bei wo ai ni... hao ai hao ai ni... hehe...* i'm starting work in a few days' time... will have lesser time with bao bei unless on off days and of cos the coming V day which we will celebrate together somehow or other... hmmm... so glad i've dardar in my life now... *muacks* ^_^ when i was shopping alone on sunday, i saw the couple rings and for that moment i missed ours... hmm... dar gave me that ring on the day he asked for my love hmm... if i could have it with me all the time... haiz... hehe but dar's gonna buy me something else soon le... haha... although i don't know what is it yet... doubt he knows it himself... =P don't want him to spend too much on me either... *hugs* u can always get prezzies now and then haha one per month also can =P *haha* bleagz... yay... can see dar again tmr le... passing him his info on singpost... he better not be a smelly piggy again... *he doesn't bathe in the mornings haha cos he oversleeps... and ~ssshhhhh... he has a habit of dancing alone at home in his room without wearing his top (or is it naked hahaha) haha dance like WILLIAM HUNG hahaha... don't say u heard it from me k haha~ ^_^bleagz

an early date for our 1st month ani... dardar... i love u...

2005-01-28T01:38:00.000+08:00

hmm... today started off in a bad manner... don't wish to talk abt it anymore... shall just remember the happy moments... stayed up till 2am last night to do the present for dardar... made the cross-stitch myself yet dardar asked if i bought it or made it myself... still sounded like he don't believe i did it personally... so sad... =< mm... next time i shall do a big one... prove him wrong... hmmmph...
met dardar around 2 today then went on a bus trip haha... at least we managed to find our way back to the queenstown library haha thanks to my clevernes.. =P hmm, ate lunch with dardar, hehe made me feed him again although he failed to feed me hehe... mm, simple meal but it was an enjoyable meal... love dar so much... *hugs* miss every moment with him... be it on the bus, train station or in the library... every laughter, every conversation...every moment with dardar his hugs his kisses haha... so sweet... ^_^
today's an early celebration of our 1st month ani... mm, didn't really celebrate but well the lunch was perfect... the date was good... mm... hao huai nian jing tian de yue hui oh... =P dar gave me a love cushion(heart-shaped) and a photo-frame... hehe nice cushion... full of dust haha... wonder if dar really bought it specially for me ma?? or was it for someone else or worse was it a gift from someone then he gave it to me... *ponders* mm... regarding those i gave dardar well i leave it to him to tell haha... mm... dardar's getting his pay next week... mm, i never wanted to interfer in dar's financial matters but... i heard his story abt his brother and the new hp... true enough dar's fillal and doesn't want his mother to run out of cash esp when she needs to spend on the household but... when i see dar always thinking over and over again before getting food or meals even... my heart aches... i wanted to tell dardar to not pay his mum almost $500 at one go... if he does that he'll have little cash left, not that i want him to spend on me... its just that i want dardar to be able to get stuffs he like too... i know he hopes to have some new clothes, a discman and some other stuffs here and there yet when it comes to buying them he hesistates... dardar's sensible but it hurts me to see him like that... i understand dar's character, he sure say nevermind or things like don't need i got enough to spend... mm... i wanna help dar so i try to pamper him and his family on his behalf when i can afford to... hmm... baobei, u said u not going church anymore so that means the monthly pledging of cash wont apply to u anymore le... that would give u a bit more cash in hand... then v day's coming... u sure will spend for that occassion de... i don't want u to go hungry just to save up or just cut ur expenditures like ur meals etc for my sake... u may not like this idea but dar i know u want to help lighten ur mum's burden but... dardar... can u pay her in 2-3 payments or something? maybe instead of a straight $500 at one go, maybe give her say $200 first since u scared she has not enough to spend then the rest another time or something? its ur financial matters i don't have the right to interfer but dar, wo bu xiang kan dao ni zhe ge yang zi... u looked like u lost weight le... never eat well, u save on urself to spend on me and ur family... wo kan le xin teng... dui zi ji hao yi dian hao ma? i don't want dardar to always worry before spending... or worse to have not enough to spend... *hugs* 因为我在乎你所以我要你过得好一点开心一点,宝贝你明白我的意思吗?? 要过年了,先把钱花在你自己身上好吗?? 宝贝... 我心疼你... *抱抱* 也要花在我们身上,情人节哦...宝贝... =P *love u...*

and love ah... don't blame urself anymore okie? i'm not angry with u le... when i heard u blaming urself, ur unhappiness at home and how u felt in class after that happened this morning... my heart hurt... *sayang...*

欧得洋

2005-01-25T16:02:00.000+08:00

** 孤单北半球 ^_^ **

用我的晚安陪你　吃早餐
記得把想念　存進撲滿
我　望著滿天星　在閃
聽牛郎對織女說　要勇敢

別怕我們在地球　的兩端
看我的問候　騎著魔毯
飛　用光速飛到　你面前
要　你能看到十字星有北極星作伴

少了我的手臂當枕頭　你習不習慣
你的望遠鏡望不到　我北半球的孤單
太平洋的潮水跟著地球　來回旋轉
我會耐心地等　隨時歡迎你靠岸

少了我的懷抱當暖爐　你習不習慣
E給你照片看不到　我北半球的孤單
世界再大兩顆真心就能　互相取暖
想念不會偷懶　我的夢通通給你保管

~ i've found my 幸福車站 have u found urs??? ^_^ ~

* 幸福車站 *

作詞：Benny.C(陳靜楠)　作曲：方文良　編曲：梁介洋

準備好了嗎　九月九號九點九分　兩個人就要出發
不帶行李　也不帶牽掛　向幸福車站出發
你看窗外呀　像不像一張又一張　飛過了莫內的畫
讓我眼睛　也捨不得眨　都因爲有你對伞“茽栬F塔
都因爲戀人的約定才浪漫的啊　不管到哪
只要我身邊有你就夠了　就夠了　就夠了
幸福車站要兩個人才能到達　票根是一句回答
說跟著我你就不怕　櫥窗裏那件白紗　何時爲我穿上了它
幸福車站沒有王子騎著白馬　只有真心的傻瓜
在終點爲你蓋個家　風雨都吹不垮　愛到有了白髮
You're still my love
所有的戀人呐幸福站快到啦　別忘了真心呐幸福站快到啦
下站請帶著它　幸福站快到啦

** ~ 一人一半 ~ **

作詞：十方　作曲：方文良　編曲：方文良

安靜會吵醒舊的事情　悲傷一步步正逼近耳邊又響起　我愛你　那麼清晰　那麼銳利翻箱倒櫃　試圖忙一點　想趕走思念汗水淚水原來一樣鹹　像對錯最後難以分辨說好了痛苦一人一半　轉身各自解散我左邊肩膀上的天堂　仍是你專屬的遊樂場說好了甜密一人一半　讓分手不那麼酸我幫你裝上了一雙翅膀　卻用回憶把自己綑綁失去的原因　沒有道理　我常和自己吵不停再多的書籍勸不醒　分而不離　離而不棄愛像底片曝光後毀滅　抓不住從前今天明天原來同一天　因為日曆撕不掉思念說好了痛苦一人一半　轉身各自解散我左邊肩膀上的天堂　再不是你想來的地方說好了甜密一人一半　讓分手不那麼酸我幫你裝上了一雙翅膀　卻用回憶把自己綑綁

my baobei dardar... =P

2005-01-25T15:03:00.000+08:00

i miss my baobei alot... talking to him this morning was so nice... hearing his voice the moment i woke up... felt like he was right in front of me... haha... or rather i felt blissed... filled with love... lots and lots of love... ^_^ dar's vexed over what to get for me for V day and our coming first month ani... haha... actually i am too... but the other way around... there's so many things i wanna give dar... till i duno what should i give him first... already have a few items hidden in my room at the moment... =P *oops* haha wonder what'll he be up to this time... the surprises better be good hor dardar... *_^

~ haha... must note this sms down... created by my genius piggy... hahaha... but i still won afterall bleagz... =P~

dar: if u read this msg, u owe me a hug. if u delete, u owe me a kiss. if u save, u owe me a date. if u reply, u owe me all but if u ignore, u are mine! =P

dear: if u read this msg, i've gave u a hug. if u delete, i gave u a kiss. if u save, i went for ur date. if u reply, i owe u nothing but if u ignore, u dun love me! =P

Attn: for all guys out there... esp dardar haha... impt tips on flowers...

2005-01-25T01:27:00.000+08:00

Iris - 热情思念
Lily white - 爱的宣布
Lily yellow - 真爱永远
Rose champagne - 温柔动人
Rose pink - 温馨爱情
Rose red - 热情
Rose white - 纯洁
Rose (red and white) - 无限的爱
Sunflower - 敬慕
Tulip red - 爱的宣言
Tulip yellow - 深深爱你

~ so dar... u know what flower and which colour and how many of them to get me le ma?? ~ ^_^
1 - 你是我的唯一
2 - 世界上只有你和我
3 - 我爱你
6 - 我心属于你
8 - 难以抗拒你的爱
9 - 永浴爱河
10 - 十全十美的你
11 - 一心一意的爱
12 - 心心相印
16 - 甜蜜的爱
18 - 此情不渝
20 - 天作之合
21 - 你是我的最爱
24 - 我永远都爱你
36 - 生命因你而亮
48 - 真爱永远
50 - 无悔的爱
99 - 天长地久
100 - 100%的爱
101 - 你是我唯一的爱
365 - 天天想你
999 - 无尽的爱

Flowers and its meanings...

2005-01-24T16:31:00.000+08:00

ACACIA: Concealed love, chaste love.
AGAPANTHUS: Love letters, love.
ALIUM: Strength.
ALSTROMERIA: Wealth, prosperity, fortune.
AMARYLLIS: Pride.
AMBROSIA: Love is reciprocated.
ANEMONE: Forsaken, expectation.
ANTHURIUM: Lover.
APPLE BLOSSUMS: Good fortune.
ARBUTUS: Thee only do I love.
ASPARAGUS FERN: Fascination.
ASTER: Variety, elegance, daintinessThis purple wildflower was once burned by the ancients because they believed the resulting smoke would drive away evil. It was named for the Latin word for "star." Also known as the birthflower for September.
ASTILBE: I'll still be waiting.
AZALEA: Love, romance, first love, fragile passion, temperance. It is also the Chinese symbol of womanhood.
BABY'S BREATH: Innocence.
BACHELOR BUTTON: Single blessedness.
BALSAM: Ardent love.
BEGONIA: Beware.
BELLS OF IRELAND: Good luck.
BIRD OF PARADISE: Magnificence.
BITTERSWEET: Truth.
BLUEBELL: Humility, constancy.
BOUVARDIA: Enthusiasm.
BROOM: Humility.
BUTTERCUP: Childishness.
CACTUS: Endurance.
CALENDULA: Grief, jealousy. Also the birthflower for October.
CALLA LILY: Magnificent beauty. Associated with the sixth wedding anniversary.
CAMELLIA: Gratitude.
CAMELLIA, PINK: Longing for you.
CAMELLIA, RED: You're a flame in my heart.
CAMELLIA, WHITE: You're adorable.
CARNATION: Fascination, distinction, divine love, woman, yes. Also the birthflower for January.
CARNATION, PINK: A woman's love, I'll never forget you, mother's love.
CARNATION, PURPLE: Capriciousness.
CARNATION, RED: Alas for my poor heart, admiration, my heart aches for you, fascination.
CARNATION, STRIPED: Refusal, No, sorry I can't be with you.
CARNATION, WHITE: Innocence, faithfulness, sweet and lovely, pure love, ardent love, good luck. These lovely flowers have lasting qualities, and are often handed out on Mother's Day to symbolize the purity and strength of motherhood. They were handed out at the first Mother's Day service in 1908.
CARNATION, YELLOW: Disdain, rejection, you have disappointed me.
CATTAIL: Peace, prosperity.
CHRYSANTHEMUM: Cheerfulness, optimism, rest, truth. Considered to be a noble flower in Asian culture, mums are used as an object of meditation per a suggestion by Confucius. Also the birthflower for November.
CHRYSANTHEMUM, RED: I love.
CHRYSANTHEMUM, WHITE: Truth, loyal love.
CHRYSANTHEMUM, YELLOW: Slighted love.
CLEMATIS: Clever, intellectual. Associated with the eighth wedding anniversary.
CORNFLOWER: Delicacy.
COSMOS: Modesty. Associated with the 2nd wedding anniversary.
CROCUS: Cheerfulness, abuse not.
CYCLAMEN: Resignation, good-bye.
DAFFODIL: Regard, rebirth, new beginnings, unrequited love, you're the only one, chivalry. Associated with the tenth wedding anniversary. Also the birthflower for March.
DAFFODIL, SINGLE: Misfortune.
DAFFODIL, SEVERAL: Joy, happiness.
DAHLIA: Instability. Associated with the fourteenth wedding anniversary.
DAISY: Innocence, loyal love, I'll never tell, purity. Associated with the fifth wedding anniversary.
DANDELION: Faithfulness, happiness, love's oracle.
DAY LILY: Coquetry, Chinese emblem for mother. Associated with the twentieth wedding anniversary.
DELPHINIUM: Big-hearted, fun.
EBONY: Blackness.
EREMURUS: Endurance.
EUPHORBIA: Persistence.
FERN: Sincerity, magic, fascination, confidence, shelter.
FIR: Time.
FLAX: Domestic symbol.
FLYTRAP: Deceit.
FORGET-ME-NOT: True love, hope, remembrance, memories.
FORSYTHIA: Anticipation.
FOUR-LEAF CLOVER: Good luck, be mine.
FOXGLOVE: Insincerity.
FREESIA: Innocence, thoughtfulness.
FUSCHIA: Taste. Associated with the third wedding anniversary.
GARDENIA: You're lovely, secret love, joy, sweet love, good luck.
GERANIUM: Stupidity, folly, comfort, gentility. Associated with the fourth wedding anniversary.
GINGER: Strength.
GLADIOLUS: Strength of character, remembrance, infatuation, splendid beauty, give me a break, I'm really sincere, flower of the Gladiators, admiration, tells recipients that they pierce the heart like a sword. Because the gladiolus has blade-shaped leaves, the name comes from the Latin word gladius which means sword. Also the birthflower for August.
GLOXINA: Love at first sight.
HEATHER, LAVENDER: Admiration, solitude, beauty.
HEATHER, WHITE: Protection, wishes will come true.
HIBISCUS: Delicate beauty.
HOLLY: Foresight, defense, domestic happiness, enchantment.
HOLLYHOCK: Ambition, fruitfulness. Associated with the thirteenth wedding anniversary.
HONEYSUCKLE: Bonds of love.
HUCKLEBERRY: Simple pleasure.
HYACINTH: Sport, play, games, rashness, flower dedicated to Apollo.
HYACINTH, BLUE: Constancy.
HYACINTH, PURPLE: I am sorry, sorrow, please forgive me.
HYACINTH, RED OR PINK: Play.
HYACINTH, WHITE: Loveliness, I'll pray for you.
HYACINTH, YELLOW: Jealousy.
HYDRANGEA: Thank you for understanding, frigidity, heartlessness, heartless.
IRIS: Wisdom, Fleur-de-lis, emblem of France, your friendship means so much to me, faith, hope, valor, my compliments.
Associated with the twenty-fifth wedding anniversary.
IRIS, BLUE: Faith, hope.
IRIS, PURPLE: Wisdom, compliments.
IRIS, YELLOW: Passion.
IRIS, WHITE: Purity.
IVY: Fidelity, wedded love, friendship, affection, marriage.
IXIA: Happiness.
JACK-IN-THE-PULPIT: Associated with the seventh wedding anniversary.
JASMINE, WHITE or INDIAN: Amiability , I attach myself to you, sensuality, attachment.
JASMINE, SPANISH: Sensuality.
JASMINE, YELLOW: Grace, elegance.
JONQUIL: Sympathy , love me, affection returned, desire.
LADY SLIPPER: Capricious beauty.
LARKSPUR: Fickleness, ardent attachment, levity, lightness. Also the birthflower for July.
LARKSPUR, PINK: Fickleness.
LARKSPUR, PURPLE: First love.
LAVENDER: Devotion.
LEATHERLEAF FERN: Fascination.
LILAC: Youthful, humility, confidence.
LILY: Majesty, wealth, pride, innocence, purity.
LILY, WHITE: Purity, modesty, virginity, majesty, it's heavenly to be with you. The white lily is linked to Juno, the queen of the gods in Roman mythology, by the story that while nursing her son Hercules, some excess milk fell from the sky creating the group of stars we call the Milky Way, and lilies were created from what milk fell to the earth. The Easter lily is also known as the symbol of the Virgin Mary.
LILY, ORANGE: flame, I burn for you.
LILY, YELLOW: I'm walking on air, false, gay.
LILY OF THE VALLEY: Return of happiness, purity of heart, sweetness, tears of the Virgin Mary, you've made my life complete, humility, happiness. The legend of the lily of the valley is that it sprang from Eve's tears when she was kicked out of the Garden of Eden. It is also believed that this flower protects gardens from evil spirits. Also known as the flower of May.
LOTUS BLOSSUM: Estranged love.
MAGNOLIA: Dignity, love of nature, nobility.
MARIGOLD: Affection, cruelty, grief, jealousy. The marigold was called Mary's Gold by early Christians who placed garlands of marigolds by statues of the Virgin Mary.
MARIGOLD, POT: Grief, despair.
MIMOSA: Sensitivity.
MINT: Virtue.
MISTLETOE: Kiss me, affection, to surmount difficulties, sacred plant of India.
MONKSHOOD: Beware, a deadly foe is near, danger.
MORNING GLORY: Loves you. Associated with the eleventh wedding anniversary.
MOSS: Maternal love, charity.
MYRTLE: Love, Hebrew emblem of marriage.
NARCISSUS: Egotism, conceit, self love, self admiration, formality, stay as sweet as you are. Also known as the birthflower for December.
NASTURTIUM: Conquest, victory in battle. Associated with the fortieth wedding anniversary.
OAK LEAVES: Bravery.
OLEANDER: Caution.
OLIVE BRANCH: Peace.
ORANGE BLOSSUM: Purity, innocence, eternal love, marriage and fruitfulness, fertility.
ORANGE, MOCK: Deceit.
ORCHID: Rare beauty, love, refinement, beautiful lady, Chinese symbol for many children, mature charm, beauty, long life. Associated with twenty-eighth wedding anniversary.
PALM LEAVES: Victory, success.
PANSIES: Receipient is being thought about. The flower's name comes from the French word pensée which means thought or remembrance. Associated with the first wedding anniversary.
PAPERWHITE: Aphrodisiac due to its intoxicating scent. It is also the national flower of Wales because it often blooms on March 1st which is St. David's feast day, Wales' patron saint.
PEONY: Bashfulness, shame, happy life, happy marriage, good health, prosperity. Associated with the twelfth wedding anniversary.
PEPPERMINT: Cordiality.
PERIWINKLE: Friendship.
PETUNIA: Resentment, anger, your presence soothes me.
PHLOX: Unanimity.
POPPY: Eternal sleep, oblivion, imagination. Associated with ninth wedding anniversary.
POPPY, RED: Pleasure, consolation.
POPPY, WHITE: Consolation, sleep, rest.
POPPY, YELLOW: Wealth, success.
PRIMROSE: I can't live without you.
PRIMROSE, EVENING: Happy love.
QUEEN ANNE'S LACE: Haven.
RANUNCULUS: You are radiant with charm, radiant charm.
RHODODENDRON: Danger, caution.
ROSE: Love, passion, perfection. The rose was named for the Latin word rosa which means red. It has been a symbol of love since ancient times. Associated with the fifthteenth wedding anniversary. It is also known as the birthflower of June.
ROSE, BURGUNDY: Beauty within.
ROSE, CORAL: Desire.
ROSE, DARK CRIMSON: Mourning.
ROSE, HIBISCUS: Delicate beauty.
ROSE, LAVENDER: Love at first sight, enchantment.
ROSE, LEAF: You may hope.
ROSE, MOSS: Confessions of love.
ROSE, ORANGE: Fascination, display feeling of enthusiasm.
ROSE, PEACH: Desire, gratitude, apprecation, admiration, sympathy, modesty.
ROSE, PINK: Happiness, appreciation, admiration, friendship, sympathy.
ROSE, DARK PINK: Thankfulness.
ROSE, LIGHT PINK: Grace, gladness, joy, perfect happiness, please believe me, gratitude, admiration, gentility.
ROSE, RED: Love, passion, respect, courage, I love you, beauty, pure and lovely, prosperity.
ROSE, DEEP RED: Un-selfconscious beauty.
ROSE, SINGLE, FULL BLOOM: I love you, I still love you, new love.
ROSE, BUD, SMALL: Pure and lovely, beauty and youth, a heart innocent of love.
ROSE, THORNLESS: Love at first sight.
ROSE, WHITE: Innocence, purity, secrecy, I am worthy of you, silence, friendship, truth, virtue, girlhood, humility spiritual love, but of the soul, reverence, charm, happy love.
ROSE, WHITE, DRIED: Death is preferable to loss of virtue.
ROSE, YELLOW: Joy, friendship, true love, decrease of love, jealousy, try to care, freedom, slighted love, shows "I care", joy, gladness.
ROSES, BOUQUET, MATURE: Gratitude.
ROSES, RED & WHITE TOGETHER: Unity, flower emblem of England.
ROSES, YELLOW & RED TOGETHER: Happiness, congratulations.
ROSES, YELLOW & ORANGE TOGETHER: Passionate thoughts.
ROSEMARY: Remembrance, purity, rebirth.
SAGE: Virtue.
SALAL: Zest.
SCABIOUS: Unfortunate love.
SMILAX: Loveliness.
SNAPDRAGON: Deception, gracious lady, presumption.
SPEARMINT: Warm sentiment.
SPIDER FLOWER: Elope with me.
STAR OF BETHLEHEM: Purity.
STATICE: Sympathy, remembrance, success.
STEPHANOTIS: Happiness in marriage, desire to travel.
STOCK: Lasting beauty, bonds of affection, promptness, you'll always be beautiful to me.
SUNFLOWER: Follows the sun as it grows, adoration, haughtiness.
SWEET PEA: Lasting pleasure, good-bye, departure, blissful pleasure, thank you for a lovely time, I think of you. Supposedly this delicate flower was named by the poet John Keats. Associated with the thirtieth wedding anniversary. Also known as the birthflower of April.
SWEET WILLIAM: Gallantry, smile, finesse.
THYME: Activity.
TUBEROSE: Dangerous pleasure.
TULIP: Perfect lover, frame, flower emblem of Holland.
TULIP, RED: Believe me, declaration of love, fame.
TULIP, VARIEGATED: Beautiful eyes.
TULIP, YELLOW: Hopeless love, there's sunshine in your smile.
VIOLET: Modesty, faithfulness, innocence, understated beauty. Worn by the ancient Greeks to induce sleep and to calm tempers. Associated with the fifieth wedding anniversary. Also known as the birthflower of February.
VIOLET, BLUE: Watchfulness, faithfulness, I'll always be true.
VIOLET, PURPLE: Thoughts of you, blue love.
VIOLET, WHITE: Let's take a chance, youthful innocence.
VIOLET, YELLOW: Love of country.
WATER LILY: Purity of heart.
WEEPING WILLOW: Mourning.
WHEAT: Friendliness.
YARROW: Healing, sorrow.
ZINNIA: Thoughts of absent friends, in memory of an absent friend.
ZINNIA, SCARLET: Constancy.
ZINNIA, WHITE: Goodness.
ZINNIA, YELLOW: Daily remembrance.

on the 21st jan 2005...

2005-01-24T15:24:00.000+08:00

hmmm... met dar on that day... rather last minute which made dar 'anxious' once again haha... but i do that almost all the time so it doesn't really matter eh? haha... hmmm... we met for lunch at tiong then went up to meet my cousin(to be cont'd) and yup after that the day belong to dar... ^_^ i think dar wasn't quite used to me being so 'sticky' initially, out of a sudden i was like hugging him on and off... cuddling together etc... guess that's why he asked if i was okay or qns like "what happen.. dear?" hmmm... but u liked it didn't u?? =P bleagz... we wanted to watch The Aviator but instead we took Shall we Dance? well... not a bad movie, sat in the first row a bit near for one but well... i cared more about whom i was with instead... =P but i still watched the show hehe... nice and comfortably in dar's arms... ^_^

mm, shopping in chinatown after the movie was "wow!"... okay we bought lots of stuff(haha) all the goodies etc... spent quite a bit but well its for dar and his family so i don't mind paying... =p i would say that our relationship has moved a step forward in the sense that we're certain of our feelings and this relationship... although its not that open yet... but yep i'm sure that i like this guy hehe... mm... and i wont give him up to other girls... hmmm.... *nods* (hear that dar... *muacks*)

okay now about the meet-up with 'gor'(my cousin brother) hmm... haven't seen him since he started his NS life... not too bad looking with that crew cut, toned skin and yup trimmer body although his weight is not at that perfect range (100%) yet... had a great chat... talking about all kinds of stuff not to forget his interesting conversation topics of NS being 'fun' etc... and his attempts to meet my friend just to see if i was out with a guy haha... well that's him... it was good to see him again... i always treated him as my own brother partly cos we grew up together and we're both only child... hmmm... look forward to seeing him again, which is during CNY... YAY~~~ ^_^

specially written for u...

2005-01-18T17:08:00.000+08:00

*Even if the next moment is the end of the world...

As long as this very second u are with me...

That is all that matters...*

i'm urs heart and soul...

serving as ur friend ur lover...

and as ur guardian angel...

i'll be here for u whenever u need me...

and to have u is the best gift from heaven ever...

i thank the angels for sending u to me...

for giving me love, happiness and comfort in life...

with u as my guardian angel, soulmate and supporter...

nothing will i be afraid of anymore...

for i know u'll be there whenever i need u...

love ya always...

to my dar dar... ^_^

2005-01-16T01:15:00.000+08:00

dar... hmmm, today's date was great although it was something simple but it was nice wasn't it? just two of us spending some quiet time together... hehe =P although u failed upon ur 'wish' of having a photo taken together... but somehow or other, u did gain from today's date ya? haha... u know what i'm refering to don't u? hmm... i'm glad u told me alot about urself today, and for being honest and truthful, haha although i'm just taking ur words but... i trust u ^_^ mm... before going to meet u what i had in mind was just 'friends going out together' kind of date... but erm... yes things gone beyond that level la... haha... its just comfortable being with u... mm... look forward to seeing u again =P and er... dar, i know your worries... mm, for now since its been this identity then just let things go on from here k? i do not want to take the risk of losing u by telling the truth although i know i should, but i'm aware of how things will be when my mum knows about the real story... =( its tough and unfair to you... but... i don't have other choice but to do so... bear with it k? hope things gets better in future... for now, dar... just work hard and finish your last semester okay? i know u can make it... JIAYOU!!! *muacks* mm... someone said i never give him enough moral support... hmmm... okay i got ur hint... haahaa... just wait and see k? *hugs*

an important day for us both...

2005-01-14T01:05:00.000+08:00

hmmm... piggy... today's the day... ^_^
exactly a month ago we met for the first time, that was on my birthday remember? the whole date, from the moment we met up at raffles place mrt station till the journey to Junction 8 and then shopping around, the dinner at sakae(haha which has a small amusing sector involved), movie - the polar express... the presents the laughters... everything about that day is so fresh in memory... i guess that was the first time i felt so at ease and comfortable with a guy(not just a guy friend but someone unique) especially one whom i don't really know... i don't know what gave me the courage to meet you then... =P

mm, recall back, do u remember how we got to know each other and how everything started?? was it the word 'precious' that started ur emotions?? haahaa what i remembered deepest was how frequent we spoke online through msn and u being there for me all the time, encouraging me when i was doubtful, cheering me up when i was feeling down... hmm... and the first time u popped that question... ^_^ all the way to 'the' day that means to much to us now... every moment spent together every conversation with u... they're all so special and memorable... i'm thankful and glad to have found u... and thanks to ur character and determination in waiting for me, we've made it so far... hmmm... we've made a pact with each other and although the road ahead may be tough but let's face it together k? u've pampered me (which i know u will continue doing so rite dar??)... and dar, i'm already so used to having u around... i like the way things are between us now... don't u? hehe... some things i can't bring myself to write it out here so guess based on our telepathy u will know what i'm refering to and how blessed i'm feeling having u in my life...

the special one... all i ask of u... one love, one lifetime...

2005-01-01T07:05:00.000+08:00

recently i've been hanging out with this guy rather frequently haha... 3 dates le... we met for the first time on my birthday, then spent christmas together... and our 3rd date... took place yesterday on his birthday... haha... every date was special and memorable... both our birthdays comprise of another 'occassion' and christmas... well... westerners believe that it should be spent with ur love one... =P u wont believe it cos i dont either... a few days ago when i was in genting... i had this thought out of nowhere... thinking abt the dates we've had and knowing that we're likely to meet on the 30th... somehow i thought it'll be romantic if 'something else' happened on that day... haha... and it actually did... his so what called 'surprise'... hehe... honestly... it was touching and sweet... but haha... that 'conversation' took quite a long time to get business settled... haha... he actually bought a pair of rings... and eventually put it on for me... i can't describe that feeling... hmmm... but i think i freaked him out... when i kept refusing to give in... regardless of what option he gave me haha... =P

he's out to spoil me badly... always spending on me... silly pig... haha but gers are meant to be doted and pampered on... hehe... bleahz...

holiday trips... wheeeee~~~~

2004-12-31T14:15:00.000+08:00

hmm... haven't blog for a long time... been away for hols... to HongKong and Genting... haha... so busy having fun :) hmm... let's recall the past happenings... lets start from HK trip...

first time to hk... always wanted to go there since young... or rather when i was so into HK tv dramas... but its so cool and simply a fantastic trip... why? cos we ate alot and shop alot... all we did was travel to some places of interest... giggle, laugh, take photos... eat many meals a day and then shop till we drop... haha... watches, clothes, skirts, jeans, bags, handphone accessories, food stuff... u name it we bought it... haha... =P went to so many places during our 6 days trip... haha... teddy bear land was cool... all the soft toys... so cute... haha... and the 'xing guang da dao' wow... nice scenery at night... cold breeze making u shiver... oh and we took photos with andy lau's handprint... his hands aren't that big afterall... =P i met yuhan there... in the 'woman's street' haha... i was still wondering if it was her when i spotted her then she called me hahaha... thought i would meet ade or ms lee who both went off for hols the same day as me but nope, no luck there... haha... it wasnt very cold... somehow i felt it was colder in genting than in Hk... weird right? but ya whatever... both trips were good... and i'm convinced i can survive in HK haha at least they can understand my cantonese... => haha... mum said i can consider getting a hongkie as my bf le... haha...

just came back from genting 2 days ago... haha what we did at genting was worse... let's see... i watched kungfu hustle (again) and i'm convinced its a lame show not funny at all... the phantom of the opera was good... a must watch i would rate it... haha... tickets there are cheap... RM10 = s$4+?? and the combo meals... haha popcorn plus drink... RM 3.50... see how cheap it is there... then we went themepark... u wont believe it... we (just 2 gers) went to take all the coaster rides... including the only and the newest flying coaster ride in asia... haha... thrilling... ~YEA!~ the pirate train was so 'scary' haha it was nothing but some drawings on the walls in a dark area... wow... haha... let's just say we wasted time queueing up for it... should have gone boat paddling instead at least that would have worked some leg muscles out hahaha... we went ripley's believe it or not... haha... believe it or not, we only spent like half an hr there... its so 'interesting' yea... the arcade was our entertainment for the last night and we played or rather wasted at least RM30? hahaha its been so many years since i last went to play in the arcade... so childish hahaha but it felt good to be a 'kido' again... bleahz... pizza and cup noodles were our supper and at least one meal a day is settled in a fast-food outlet... marybrown, BK, Mac, KFC... all i've done these days was just eat, shop and have fun... bought lots of food and gifts home from these 2 trips... but not everything is mine... 'almost' everyone received something from me... haha... spent a lot... =P ~ oops... ~

the cousins' day out... 7 dec 2004

2004-12-16T14:08:00.000+08:00

haha... that day was full of madness... firstly... the movie "without a paddle" wasn't nice... kind of boring actually... but we had limited choices so... whatever... then... about food... yummy we went sushi teh for dinner with uncle and grandma... ate sashimi... yea... ^_^ and during the movie haha a boxes of popcorns were finished in no time.. plus that 4 cups of drinks... one sprite one ice tea one coke and one zappel... madness to think we had supper after that at chatterbox with aunt constance... ~whaaahahaha... but it was fun and enjoyable, squeezing into aunt's car ahhaha which we haven't tried for sometime... and oh my first attempt at playing pool... super embarassing... i shall only play pool with my 2 cousin brothers haha... but i guess it'll be a while before we get to hang out again... ben (aka gor) is already in ns poor him hope he's ok... haiz... i miss him we used to grow up together since young... very close to each other... even lately in the midst of As we still chat online through msn... hehe not to worry gor i'll enjoy the vcds u got me hahaha... i'm still at stairway to heaven ep 14 hahaha u will sure nag when u hear my progress but who cares... i'm taking my own sweet time hahaha... =) the next time we have a get together would perhaps be CNY le... unless we get to meet this X'mas... =P

happy birthday... ^_^

2004-12-16T13:46:00.000+08:00

yay... i'm 18 haha... this year i spent it with a friend... quite a great day out... ate sakae sushi and watched the polar express... did some shopping too although i wasn't the one who bought the stuffs... =P heyz, thanks for the day... quite glad it turned out well...

hmmm... received alot of wishes and presents this year... a snoopy watch(that is adjusted to fit my wrist perfectly), a pink cap(that appears a little too big), sweets(which i still have lots to eat...), several dinner treats... hmmm... a PM figurine, letter set, bookmark, a card, chocolates, facial masks, water bottle, a winnie the pooh mug... hmmm... a diamond pendant which i'm wearing everyday since i got it... and yup even something from MOE haha... not really but i'm awarded the 'good progress award' that gives me $200 which is to be collected in jan 2005... and a testi that is well written by ms sab... hahaha... ^_^

oh not to forget the holiday trip to hong kong and to genting... quite lucky arent i? haha... but i guess the best gift was to have that special friend... u know who u are i suppose... hmmm... hope u like what i bought for u too... haha... we shall go eat sakae again someday k hahaha... maybe on ur birthday? haha... let's go try something else this time round... but quite surprised that u eat so little... =P hehe and thanks for the compliment abt... u know... ^_^

mm, quite happy these days... with all the friends and companions around... who says being an onlychild is a bad thing... haha... i'll be leaving for hong kong tmr... yeah... haha... first time going there so kind of excited... always wanted to go especially when i was so into tvb dramas when i was younger... hope the weather will be good and not too cold *touchwood* better not rain else there's no where i can go sightseeing or shopping le... =P

~tell ya abt my trip when i return ba... ciao!~

once a saint, always a saint...

2004-12-06T15:28:00.000+08:00

A levels have ended... and i miss school days.... from the first day in SAJC till now having graduated... 2 years have passed not a very period of time but definitely a very happening one... alot of things happened a lot of memories... been through the tough times of mugging... the happy and fun times of partying and hanging out... the wonderful days in homeroom... haha it was that 'smelly room' that kept our class bonded together... we used to get sick of studying and now when we have all the time in the world to play and enjoy people are complaining of bored/sian... haha... interesting huh? life's quite bored with similiar activities each day, facing the computer/tv/cinema screen... or shopping hanging out and having fun in some part of s'pore... except those who started work well guess its a new experience for u guys... =)
life in SA was good... as in its really "once a saint, always a saint" kind of feeling... great class, great friends, great teachers, great memories... there's so much about my 2 years with SAJC that its too much to talk about... u need to experience it urself... ^_^

i ought to do some serious planning, about what i want to do, how will i spend these few months up to july and (touchwood) if i do not get a seat in the U what will i do from then on... its a tough plan to come up with cos i've no idea what i want yet... about my future about the path i want to take... i may learn driving... i may become a civil servant... may get a job somewhere... its still rather vague and filled with uncertainties... haiz... but lately i found something within me... something that i thought was long lost and forgotten... i wonder if u feel and think that way too...

the very 1st entry...

2004-12-06T14:26:00.000+08:00

Note: ~ creation of this blog is meant to keep memories and special moments in the past 18 years... and also the following years to come... :) ~
i'm turning 18 next week and it feels special, in this 18 years a lot of things have happened... childhood memories were recalled recently when we watched a video of an outing to the zoo when we('the 3 tigers') were 2 years old... to think we were once that small and silly innocent cute adorable looking babies... i'm glad i had those moments with them, with this family... last night we had a family gathering/dinner at SAFRA, interestingly 'the 3 tigers' all had a different hair-do either highlight or dyed haha of course with the new images we took photos, just the 3 of us together again... *YAY!* it was heart-warming to be with my cousin to laugh and joke around... to feel the family bond and love... as our years and journey unfolded, we all changed in different ways but what grew deeper was our 'connection'... the 2 guys are heading for NS soon, one this friday and the other in april... this means we'll see lesser of each other again but i'm sure we'll be in touch ^_^
i was watching the vcd on our zoo outing, in the midst of laughing at our foolishness i cried... when i heard my aunt jasmine's voice again. since her death i guess this was the only thing left that had her voice and her video. she was a great aunt, doted on me so much since young, and funny enough as the adults like to make us sing and dance i only responded to her and listens to what she wants me to do, haha even dance in public... haha... maybe that was what's so special about her... oh and she used to call me "ms cute" hahaha so nice right? hehe... =P i realised how we were 'tortured' haha had to sing dance dont know how many times before we get a piece of chocolate... haha "worse than treating animals loh" hahaha but looking at the video was memorable... ^_^
we're having a cousins' outing tmr whooooo~ haha one of the rare outings where all 6 of us attend... lots of plannings play pool(the 3 older ones) then movie at 730, dinner at some jap restaurant at paragon and shopping and supper at the open space along somerset station haha... its just gonna be fun *i hope~*

*~recollecting memories~*

movies *part 2*